HAHAHAHA WOW. Friday was chaotic. Some dickweed threw an eraser at my head while I was in art zone, painting my project.
Naturally I flipped out at him.

Me: What the fuck's your PROBLEM?
Guy: ....?
Me: Did you not get enough attention as a baby? Is that it?
Guy: ....okay chill just go back to painting.
Me: Go fuckin' kill yourself. :]



and then I shook for the rest of class because I was so angry. Fuckin' attention whore guys who act like complete loud retards to attract attention/girls. Sorry, not all of us want pigheaded jock 'popular guys'. Go choke. :]

And then when I was at Metro, I stopped walking to show Lydia a pretty Asian boy and then turned back around to see this fat girl IN MY FACE. She looked all offended/pissed off
and said "uh...MOVE?!" in this horrible tone.

So when she began to speedwalk away, I yelled out that she "Looked like she needed more room to walk"

:]

I'm not sorry for either of these moments. Catch me on a high stress day, and I'll rip you in two. 8DDD

HEY! So, VFS was fun. :] All the students in the class were real friendly, despite me intruding on their tight knit group/environment. A guy named Garth taught me what 1 point, 2 point, 3 point, and 5 point perspective are. And then drew me examples, even though he hadn't yet finished his own background design. :'D;;; eternally grateful.

And then found out he watches anime, reads manga, thinks cosplay is cool[wants to give it a try], wants to go to AE, and likes Vocaloids. HE IS THE MALE VERSION OF ME.


...that is all.



Oh, and life drawing is good, but depressing. Too many thoughts swirling in my head.
These thoughts can only be danced out.
In a dark club.

Wow Mario Kart pretty much cleaned out my wallet. Damn. 80 bucks go bye byeeeee. But my brother loves it, so that's all that matters.
The steering wheels are pretty hard to use haha, but definitely adds to the coolness. YOU FEEL COOLER WHEN YOU USE IT. AND DRIVING A BIKE. ssshhhhh


In other news: I saw Kyleigh again after almost half a year or more of not having a real conversation. It was super good to catch up. And also, she's the only one who laughs that much at anything I say. She makes me feel like a comedian.

And then I watched Law Abiding Citizen randomly with someone. We were gonna watch 2012, but the lineup was brutal. EVERYONE WANTS TO SEE EVERYONE DIE :D
Also, I am super smooth. I ran into a sign after buying my ticket. ksjdhierhuasd [why can't I be normal]


And on Friday, I peaced it before block B ended to get to VFS. Nicole's instructor let me sit in on their Life Drawing class in which we drew everyone else sitting around us. Hahahaha...good times.
I ended up looking like Azula in a lot of the pictures. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing.

I'm going again on Monday to go to the Background Design class, and then another Life Drawing class.




VFS seems pretty cool actually....and my mom likes the school's reputation....

*sighsigh*

New boots?  Check
New optimism?  Check
Old guilt?  Check
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It's random how I have the Wednesday off in the middle of the week and my teacher NEVER TOLD ME.  Had to catch it through the grapevine that it was even R. Day at all... then again maybe I'm just inattentive.
Yeah that's the one.


But I still need new jeans, and I don't really feel like going to that UBC photoshoot...
Maybe drag some friends to Metro on Wednesday.


I'm scared to apply to uni, so I haven't done it yet.

But I think I'm applying to...

- VFS
- CAP
-Emily Carr  <--- this one's for the lulz, because I actually would never go there... 8C



Sorry for vanishing off for so long.  Had to get some things in perspective.  But I can't help but feel I don't deserve half the support I'm getting.

How much longer can I continue?
How much of myself can I keep hiding?

I'm sorry I couldn't change.

I'm sorry I couldn't be the one you wanted me to be.

To have a girl randomly come up to you, say you're cute and then turn around and diss one of your cos group members?

"Oh you're cute!  But this Kaito's better than your guy!"
Me: Oh really?



Sorry bitch.  I only have hot friends.


btw, no, your Kaito's wig was the wrong color.  Bright aquamarine isn't accurate.  And he didn't look 'JUST LIKE  A CHICK OMG'.  He wasn't as trappy as you thought.  Better luck next time.


:]
peace.

THIS PRAYER, that you'll answer me...
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MEME TIME


. Who are you?
. Are we friends?
. When and how did we meet?
. Would you kiss me?
. Give me a nickname and explain why?
. Describe me in one word!
. What was your first impression of me?
. Do you still think the same?
. What reminds you of me?
. If you could give me anything what would it be?
. How well do you know me?
. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
. Would you ever meet up with me?

So a few nights ago, I had a dream I was on a cruise ship with GORGEOUS, absolutely breathtaking decor. The one room had double staircases with huuuge banisters, and everything was golden and lovely.  I've been thinking too much about lolita, obviously.

AND AND, THE DREAM HAD CHUCK BASS IN IT.  It completed a wonderful night's time.  *NERD*
I can't remember much of it, but this is the first dream in a long time that I actually never wanted to wake up from.  People comment on how they don't expect me to be an early riser, but at sleepovers I'm first to wake, first to sleep.  All that.
And if dreams aren't any better than life, why dream and sleep?


So yes.  I'm very glad my subconscious decided to give me a break, and an awesome dream for once.
ALSO, I think I married him...in the dream.  it was great.
But at the same time, it was heartbreakingly romantic and I knew it would never happen like that.
Because that's not how life goes.

it's like watching this anime unfold in front of your eyes, in person.
it's amazing.




Marco, [guy on the right, wearing chinaman hat] has been having lady troubles lately.  As in, he's not interested in anyone, and girls are throwing themselves at him.

I made this connection, and now, CANNOT UNSEE.

CANNOT UNSEE.

Why did no one think to invite me?
Thanks guys.







Regardless, I'm probably gonna be cooped up inside all weekend, unless I can get better super fast and convince my mom that swimming in near winter is a good idea......
I WANNA TEACH JOANNE HOW TO SWIM ;n;